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Post by berkeley clark white on Feb 7, 2011 19:18:57 GMT -8
BERKELEYC.WHITE EVERYTHINGYOUWANTEDTOKNOWANDMORE.------------------------- made by emmy at caution. |
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Post by berkeley clark white on Feb 7, 2011 19:37:51 GMT -8
DEARJOURNAL, i've been thinking about mack again. i mean, i know that i'm gay and i'm not afraid of that, but i just don't think that everyone needs to be up in my space about my sexuality. i just really don't want the whole world to know... ya know? i just really like mack and i want to tell him that, but that would mean blowing open my huge 'secret' and i know, know that mack would not want to stay quiet about any kind of relationship we may have. he's just the kind of guy that's open about everything, ya know? and i couldn't ask him to keep whatever we could have under wraps because that would be asking him to be someone he's not. and i just couldn't do that to him.
er... on the other hand, syn and becks have been acting kinda weird lately, but i'm in too much shit with my own problem with mack to really care about what's going on between them. and apparently tricks and jovany are together now. i don't even know anymore. i really just makes me feel even more lonely than before.
LOVE,BERK. |
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Post by berkeley clark white on Feb 20, 2011 9:47:52 GMT -8
DEARJOURNAL, i should have wrote about this sooner... but, mack and i are official. god, just writing that makes me smile like a fool. i don't think i've ever been this happy before. just knowing that i can call him mine is the most amazing feeling. but knowing that i can kiss him? that's... a feeling beyond all words. as cheesy as it sounds, i feel more complete with him. quite honestly, he is one of the most amazing people i have ever met. i just wish that he could get over his insecurity. i'm not going to leave him. i just got him! i don't know what's going on in that pretty little head of his, but he's far too perfect to leave behind. polar opposites for the most part, but i like him too much...
anyway, enough of my sap. i'm about to make the biggest step of my life - besides coming out to my parents. i'm about to... well, mack and i are about to do an interview. that should pretty much sum it up for all of you who aren't reading this because this is my private journal, but. yes, i'm about to come out to my fans. am i scared shitless? you know it.
LOVE,BERK. |
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